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A sick day today. I have not been this sick in my life.

I suck at being a patient. No. Really, I truly suck. A primary physician—also a very close bestie mentions the word ( HOSPITAL) Well… I cringe. So I know when that lovely H word is mentioned, the special lady means business. I then shut up and listen.

We do not allow ourselves enough grace in life. Curiosity prevails and while waiting to fill the 7 scripts, I look up the definition of grace. I read the true definition and most certainly didn’t see my name anywhere near the word grace.

Interesting to me how lessons are learned with grace for some. And I sit. Shaking my head staring at this hot—sick—mess—self I am..still waiting for scripts to finish. I feel at that point a bit of grace peeking through.

I’ll allow myself to have grace today. I’ll allow medical professionals to have control over my illness(s). I’ll surrender in taking care of me instead of others. I’ll sleep. I’ll take my scripts like a “ good patient” along with this lovely cough concoction med being mixed as we speak. I’ll take care of me. Me.

I still truly suck as a patient. I truly do.